Colin Farrell doesn't consider himself to be "a movie star."
The 39-year-old actor's rise to fame "happened really, really fast," but he claims he stopped believing his own hype after his blockbusters 'Alexander' and 'Miami Vice' flopped in 2004 and 2006.
The 'True Detective' star said: "It all happened really, really fast. 'Alexander' and then 'Miami Vice' were films that were very big and that didn't work so much critically and didn't work so much financially. I was made to feel aware of the fact that all of a sudden, things that I was in weren't working. It just made me go, 'Wow, OK.' So I can't believe in the lie that's being presented to me anymore that I'm a movie star and that everything is great. I have this No. 1 movie ['Miami Vice']. Everyone is telling me now that that's gone. So it was kind of like, ugh.
"All of it's a delusion. Telling me it's gone is a delusion. Ever believing that it was there in the first place is a delusion."
While Colin has no regrets when it comes to his career, he no longer cares as much about what people think.
The Irish star told PBS' Tavis Smiley: "Life works in such contradictions, you know? Don't get me wrong: I really want everything I do to be appreciated, to find an audience. I want people to think I'm good at what I do. I want to feel good at what I do.
"But at the same time, I don't relate to the importance of it all with the depth that I used to, when I used to say I didn't care about it. When I used to go, 'I don't care about any of it.' I really cared then. I just didn't know how to acknowledge it or express my caring. I didn't understand it. Now, I still care, but I care less, really. And it's freed me up. That's the irony. It's freed me up."