Evan Rachel Wood admits her estranged husband Jamie Bell was "the love of her life".
The 27-year-old actress split from the 'Fantastic Four' actor - with whom she has a two-year-old son - in May 2014 after 19 months of marriage and she admits there is a hole in her heart since they separated.
In an interview with NET-A-PORTER's weekly digital fashion magazine The EDIT, she said: "Jamie's lovely. He was the love of my life."
Evan will always share a special bond with Jamie, 29, because they created a child together.
Remembering her candlelit birth, she said: "It was a psychedelic experience. I felt like I was hitting every corner of the room. Everything was vibrating."
Evan was originally in a relationship with Jamie from 2005 to 2006 and after they broke up for the first time she embarked on a three-year on/off relationship with Marilyn Manson.
'The Wrestler' star - who is openly bisexual - doesn't regret anything about her romance with the shock rocker, even though she was accused of being responsible for wrecking his marriage to Dita Von Teese.
She said: "I thought I was in love (with Marilyn). I wasn't doing it to prove a point or be rebellious. I wanted to break a mould for sure - I knew I was edgier, more alternative, and weird. And (Marilyn) was just what I needed, because I felt really free with him. And that freedom was attractive ... I wouldn't trade any of (our relationship) I appreciate everything he taught me. I just don't think we were right for each other."
Commenting on her being branded a home-wrecker, Evan added: "People were cruel. You build immunity to that sort of thing, but I wasn't used to negative feedback, so it got to me. Then I got angry, and pushed away even more."
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