Michelle Rodriguez went "pretty crazy" following Paul Walker's death.
The 36-year-old actress admits she was trying to "ignore" the pain she was feeling after losing her 'Fast and Furious' co-star, who died in a freak car accident in November 2013, by "travelling and having sex", but admits most of it she wouldn't have done if she was in her "right mind".
In an emotional interview with Entertainment Weekly magazine, the star - who was last year pictured piling on the PDA with then-girlfriend Cara Delevingne and was also photographed on a yacht with Justin Bieber and Zac Efron - said: "I actually went on a bit of a binge. I went crazy a little bit .... I went pretty crazy.
"A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind.
"I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was travelling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling."
Michelle admitted Paul was the "deepest guy" she knew and while she spent months trying to come to terms with the reason why he had been so cruelly taken away at the age of 40, earlier this year she told herself to stop "hiding" and started to piece herself back together.
She added: "I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who's deep like me, who loves like that.
"When that disappears, you wonder, 'Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?' There was nothing to tether me to this existence: 'Why am I f***ing here? And, like, why'd you leave without me?'
"I just woke up [one morning] with a profound respect for living. I stood tall one day and I said, 'You know what, Michelle? Stop f***ing hiding. Go manifest.' And all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling."